Monday, August 31, 2009

I can't do it!

What was once excitment, is now fear. I just can't go, I'm nervous. I've never been nervous about the first day of school before, but now I'm terrifyed! I have butterflies in the pit of my stomach, but it isn't as pleasent as it normally would be.

I'm just nervous because I don't know what to do when I get there. I have a crippling fear of making mistakes, I know, bad Casey, but I can't help what scares me!

Oh, I just feel as if it's getting closer and closer by the second (which it is,) and I feel that it's too soon! I can't go! I want to try and calm myself down, but if you knew me, you'd know calming myself down isn't a talent of mine. In fact, I don't think I even have those natuarl calming abilities put in me. I'm very good a working myself up, though. I'm your typical drama-queen.

Off topic, sorry. Anyway, I'm just worried. The only way I can relax myslef is if I think that other people go through it too. The only way I can ever feel confident and strong is if A. I know I'm right, or B. If I know people have it worse than me. It's very selfish of me, I know. But it's the only thing that works.

Well, I think I'm ging to sleep, the sooner I sleep the better I'll feel, I hope.
Your's in fear,
Casey Lynn

School Bells Ringing

Oh my God! I can't wait for school! First day, tomorrow. I just won't be able to sleep tonight, I know it! But I don't care, I'm going to finally be an 8th grader. I remember being younger and looking up to them, how tall they were, how intelligent they were (well, most of them.) I couldn't wait to be the big fish in a small pond. Now i'm there, and I look at myself and feel a little let down, I'm not tall, I'm not mature, I'm not responsible. I guess when I was younger they just seemd the way they were by comparison. I'm sure they felt this way, too.

It doesn't matter at all though, because I'm going back to school! I love school so much, and by the way I get excited by the first homework assighnment of the year, you wouldn't guess that I was so lazy. I have to say though, every homework assighnment after that loses it's excitment. Dramatically. And every day of school gets duller as you move on, but that's the way it has been since the beginning of time. We spend our childhood wanting to be a "big kid," we spend our teen-years wanting to grow-up, and we spend our adult years wishing we had it back. Same relationship between school and Summer, the grass is always greener.

I really do love school, though. If there was no homework, I would wish school was a year-round thing. I just love to learn new things. My Summer days are never filled with fun and games, but me sitting on my laptop reading the news, or looking up tutorials. Or maybe I'm watching Shark Week on Discovery. It's all because I love to learn. I'm like my Mom in that way. She always say's that she wishes she could get paid to go to school. I'd have to agree. That would be brilliant.

Well, anyway, today I cleaned my room. Boy, that was fun. Thank God my year's worth of crap wasn't that bad. I stuffed most of it in my closet, though. But only because most of it fell out of the closet from last year's cleaning. I looks good, besides the mountain of junk pilled up on my desk and sidetable. I have too much stuff, and nowhere to put it.

Well, I have to go. I've typed everything from today's happenings. Wish me luck for school!
Your's in excitment,
Casey Lynn


Welcome! This is my first post, so I feel the need to introduce and explain.

I am Casey Lynn, born five minutes to midnight on groundhogs day, while the snow fell in Georgia. Now I live in Wisconsin and attend a Catholic school, where evil robots rule the roost. Those robots are really just girls without personalities. That's why I call them robots. They're nice, but I really just don't enjoy their company. They can be emotionally damaging without knowing, and they are always caught up in drama and gossip. I'm not very into that stuff, so I avoid it.

I have two sisters, Kristen who is in 6th grade, and Jordan, who is in 3rd grade. I have a mom who loves thunderstorms and a clean house, and a dad who loves the Packers and Brewers. I have they world's most adorable puppy, Roscoe, who enjoys biting my fingers when he's not sleeping, or chewing on underwear. I love him anyway.

I enjoy drawing in black ink, reading ( I adore the Harry Potter Series,) and writing (that's why I started this blog.) My favorite colors are all of them because I just can't make up my mind, my favorite animal is my puppy, and my favorite shows would have to be Mythbusters and America's Next Top Model. I love the movie, Confessions of a Shopaholic, and my favorite food is pizza and pasta. Loves me some Italian food! I practically live on my laptop, except when I'm doing chores, or walking my puppy. And that's all you need to know about me and my life.